Media fasting #24

Day 24

verse; Matthew 6:25
purpose; this one is almost the same as yesterday.. let the worries over to God, focus on your relationship with Him first

Today I thought a little back in my youth.
I have a broken family, my parents were divorced when I was 14, 15 years old.
Since then my mom named me the man of the house. My father moved and I had to accept the role as the main man to take care of the things in house that my father had to do.
So yeah, I was curious today..
What if my dad didn't left us? Would I have become like I am now? Would I still be the Wai Lam you know now? Or would I be exactly the same? Would I grow up in a family where I didn't have to be the main man in house and would learn nothing?
So many questions came up in my mind.
But there is one thing I am sure off. If I didn't grow up in this broken family, I wouldn't be as tough as I am today. Maybe I wouldn't even be like a big brother, a son, a grandson, a nephew, an uncle like I am now. Maybe I would become a pussy? Hahahhaaha maybe I could.
Anyway, I'm glad that I grew up this way. Even if I like the fact that a family with a dad and mom together is better. I now don't want it any other way. I like this tough life. Cause I have Jesus Christ who is watching over me.
I may lost a dad in my home, but I have a Heavenly One who is teaching me everything I need. I really thank God for that.
And oh yeah, I want to THANK my dad for leaving us.. or I wouldn't be like I am today.
But I HATE the fact he hurt my mom's feelings.. only for that I want to punch him in the face, but that's not how Jesus told me to roll. You're lucky, dad!

to do list
- be the church!
- read the bible (I'm at Acts 21)
- replace the 'media time' for time for family, friends or self discipline
- carry my cross
- spiritual cleansing
- maybe something else will come up in my mind to do?

Guess I'll be going,

God bless you!


I make war
Against lust
against pride
Against me
until I die